" You never really stop loving someone , You just learn to try to live without them." - Anonymous
When
I was on my way to work , out of nowhere … someone just came into my mind , and
that someone’s my ex … yes my ex ! hmmm I don’t know maybe I’m just in a state
of depression lol overstatement of the year !!! maybe I’m just not in the mood since it’s too early … but it’s really weird , I haven’t heard anything about him for like ages and puhlease don’t get me wrong it’s not like thinking about him in a romantic kind of way or thinking about “I want you back in my life” kind of way … once I said it’s over, it’s totally over … over like no second chances , no reconciliation whatsoever , O.V.E.R period , I’m just thinking about how’s he doing , how’s his family , his friends , his new life … I kind of miss his presence … before we became lovers , even the word lovers sounds weird to my ears , we were friends like best of friends , he knows me more than anyone else … he knows how to comfort me when I feel so down , he knows how to make me smile when all I wanna do is frown , I’m a puzzle he already solved so the rest was easy for him … it seems so natural that whatever he’s doing , it’s like he’s meant to do it … I’m just happy that when his name pops out of my mind , I only reminisced the good ones ...
Now I was thinking I could’ve at least save the friendship cause
it’s really worth saving but then realization dawned on me , none of my exes
became my friend, when my relationship with them ended they’re also out of my
life , a bit harsh ? maybe … My mind can’t process the idea of
acting normal with someone who practically knows almost everything about you,
physically, emotionally, mentally … come on he even know your deepest darkest
secrets >.< , well maybe it’s because
I think complicatedly or I tend to over think things , but still it’s awkward
on so many levels, I was thinking of writing a blog on why you couldn’t be
friends with your ex haha!
If
you’d ask me if I still love my ex, my answer would be yes … but I’m no longer
in love with him , once you truly love a person, I’m talking about the real
kind of love, it will always be there, that feeling will be constant but if
you’d ask me if I want him back it’s a big NO … been there , learned my lessons
, moved on , end of the story … sometimes it just feels nice to remember the
people who’ve been part of your wonderful journey called life ,whatever they
caused you, whether good or bad … their existence in your life still serves its
purpose , there’s someone out there that would stay with you forever , no need
for reminiscing … and right now I’d just meekly wait for that someone to come ...
xoxo
dgt
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